C@n U keep @ Secret ?

adeh,today gelak smpi sakit perut. ropol aa,bukak citer kesah time kitorg practical dedulu…kesah mengantuk dlm kereta,ngn driver2 skali mengantuk, trap dlm jem, side mirror kene langgor…bila kenang2 balik,rasa mcm lucu beno….seronok gak time practical dedulu..dia keje Transtel,aku keje kat Lensa.. sblm g lensa,kitorg akn hanta pol n lalat g ofis derang, then br g lensa. everyday trapped in jem..itu je le routine ktorg..pegi balik lama atas keter je..ate,name pon KL…

harini kalo baca paper byk kesah sedeh psl org meninggal..kalo bab dlm negeri…mcm2 jadi…

Tajuk2 dlm negeri Utusan Online :

1) Remaja Koma dibelasah meninggal Dunia

2) Ibu tak sangka mayat dijalan anak sendiri

3) Murid disangka ayam ditembak mati

4) Isteri pemandu bas sekolah maut dalam nahas

macam2 cara Allah cabut nyawa manusia..kita yg tinggal ni tatau lg macammana.. ajal maut semua di tangan tuhan… apa2 pun, i pray to God that aku mati dlm keadaan beriman….Ya Allah, permudahkanlah urusan hidup dan matiku… amin..

nak balik nak main badminton

saikonya mendengar kisah teman2… susah sgt ke nak jumpa lelaki yg bleh dipercayai kat malaysia ni?
muka nampak innocent, tp rupa2nya curang dibelakang……couple dah bertahun2, dah dpt gf yg baik gile pun bleh mengada cari yg lain..
isk,allergic aa nak dengar kisah2 mcmni..make me curious…is all guys r same? if dah tanak, mcm2 alasan yg dibagi…
which means that they r not interested with us anymore… renyuknya hati,mcm sia-sia je spent thn2 sblm ni couple wif org yg at d end xnak kat kita..
tp mungkin juga tu maksud xde jodoh sebenarnya..
which God knows that he is not the suitable person for u..so that he make the storyline like that, in order to help us realizing, experience and learn to be more thougher 2 face life,beside He have a better plan 4 u…

so my friend, be strong ok.he didn’t deserve u…..dia yg rugi.n take it as experience …its better if u know that earlier drpd time da xleh gostan nnt..lagi parah!

I was wondering, ada ke lelaki yg bleh accept kita seadanya,which is they look 4  character n personality s da 1st impression … coz slalunya first impression derang normally pd fizikal je…(typical guys r like that..er,all kot.).. duhh

susahnya nak jumpa…..i dont care siapa s long s he like me 4 who i am n bersungguh nak share his life wif  me…..hmm.. jodoh aku kat dunia ke kat akhirat? uhuk. tatau…

* Dewa : Risalah Hati *

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dah..nak balik awal hrni.. nak cuci Glo.. but b4 that,finalizekam folder 2 b sent 4 printing ok…jya

This is good…

How to be happy

1.Don’t worry : worry is the least productive of all human activities and thoughts…
2.Don’t let needless fears preoccupy your life… : most of things we fear never happen!
3.Don’t Hold grudges.. : That is one of the biggest and most unnecessary weights we carry through our lives..
4.Take on one problem at a time : it’s the only way to handle things anyway..one by one..
5.Don’t take your problems to bed with you : They are bad and unhealthy companions for good natural sleep and rest
6.Don’t take on the problems of other people : They are better equipped to handle their own problems than you are..
7.Don’t live in the past. : It will always be there in your memories to enjoy..but don’t cling to it. Concentrate on what is happening right now in your life..and you will be happy in the present also..not just the past.
8.Be a good listener.  : It is only when one listens..that one gets and learns ideas different from ones own…
9.Do not let frustration ruin and rule your life… : Self pity more than anything..interferes with positive actions..with moving forwards in our lives.
10.Count your blessings…: Don’t even forget the smallest blessings.. As many small blessings add up to large ones…

How to make yourself happy

1. Have targets and goals
2. Smile always
3. Share the happiness with others
4. Willing to help others
5. Keep a childlike heart
6. Get on well with different kinds of people
7. Keep the sense of humor
8. Keep calm when surprise comes
9. Forgive others
10. Have some really good friends
11. Always teamwork
12. Enjoy the family gathering time
13. Be confident and proud of yourself
14. Respect the weak
15. Party yourself, sometimes
16. Be brave and courageous

Setiap manusia ada cabaran n dugaan kehidupan memasing….bila n bagaimana.. .masing2 ada bahagian memasing….the most important thing is that,how we face n solve it ….kalau kita sabar n tabah menghadapi ujian Allah,insyaAllah besar ganjarannya… mungkin bukan sekarang,mungkin bukan lusa, mungkin juga di jannah nnt… insyaAllah

Today is Friday,24 june, after 134day they left us… and today is her birthday…

sharing da same day with ma cousin,Rina a.k.a KoYong..(but she born thn 1983)…

this morning i gave her a call n wish her Happy Birthday…i bought her present, which i think she akan pakai…selalunya we will share together gether beli present for her…if kasi kad, mesti tulis nama semua org.. even this year diorg dah xde, i still write their name on d card…as on behalf ..hmm,dah biasa,xleh aa x letak…

sat lg sambung la..xleh concentrate…..

*tribute 2 along > http://intotsz.fotopages.com

hmmm..

Along, kamu ingat x masa kekecik kita main fullhouse dlm rumah..
Main masak2 bawah pokok ngn kakmin ngn hani ngn fineh…n jugak joe n noni jiran sebelah rumah…oh,kalo main getah,kamu tere jugak coz kaki kamu panjang..hehehe

Along,kamu ingat x kita pernah sama2 eksiden kene langga kete masa kamu darjah 6…kesian kamu,terpelanting kat cermin depan kete india yg bwk laju tu…org terpelanting gak,tp jauh,kat tepi jalan…alhamdulillah,kamunye luka nasib baik dpt diselamatkan lg..dokto jahit..org lak,xleh jln beberapa hari coz kaki terkejut.ibu asik kene dokong je.tiap2 hari ibu temankan kita kt hospital..kamu dpt katil biasa,org tido dlm kandang baby..hehehe..malu time guru besa n cikgu tharu dtg lawat…

Along,kamu ingat x,masa mula2 kamu masuk hostel masa f1,bila balik time cuti,kamu ajar kitorg cara solat dgn betul..kamu suh kitorg semayang sorg2 depan kamu..rukuk org tak cukup bongkok…kamu ckp,tapak tangan kenekan pd sejadah…ketiak kene rapat kalo tak nnt setan masuk kat celah2 ketiak…..kaki pun sama..

Along,kamu ingt x kamu keja n cubit org ngn hani coz suka nak hilangkan kasut barbie kamu…lepas tu kamu ngn kakmin sorok barbie korang xkasi kitorg main..hehehe..tp,do u know that everyday kitorg sentiasa berusaha mencari kunci almari time korang balik hostel balik.. ;p

Along,setiap kali hari raya, kamu yg paling xcited hias rumah..u give us the task,org ni wat apa,org ni wat apa…kalo bukan kamu,rumah kita sure xde rupa rumah nak raya… how our home will look like after this? seriously,i’m not good in decorating ….oh,u good in cooking too…..which i’m not

Bila org masuk MMU,org slalu mintak idea kamu utk project or assignmnt org..kadang2 tu berjam-jam kamu call dr jepon just nak menceritakan idea kamu..tp,org slalu amik 30% je..yg lain,xtermampu nak laksanakan…most of my work,d idea is from u…dr sek ren pun,kamu yg byk buatkan lukisan org… even plan ofis org pun,u give ur idea..siap lukiskan lg..kak hanipau pun jd mangsa…hehe… actually x only me who always refer to u 4 ideas,adik2 lain n sedara2 pun mcm tu kan…? ..u r soo talented,d most talented n d most creative dlm byk2 la ma sis…everybody admit that…we still hang ur painting @ home…..

Out trip to japan is one of the unforgettable memories in ma life..seronok gile kita time tu..jalan2 berlima berderet2,semayang belakang kedai,jadi alien kejap coz org jpn jrg tgk org pakai tudung,semua pompuan2,u b d tourist guide…masa berlalu begitu pantas time tu,xpuas ronda nipon…luckily we have some video to help me recall back d memory of 4 yrs ago (*credit to da chocomaniac 4 help me out wif d cd)..also s pengubat rindu bila nak tgk n dengar suara korang…really missed that moment 

Along, remember d time when i want to move out from ur house …i got a better offer n wanna learn 2 be independent..kamu pesan suruh org buat financial planning,simpan duit every month, n pakat utk balik sama2… bila da pindah, i think d hikmah is that it help bonding us more than b4….n now,i think i’m totally independent coz i have no u to refer to anymore…

u really love to fullfill others…nak penuhkan impian ibu ayah,nak penuhkan impian adik2,nak fullfill impian kawan2…how bout ur own? we always talk about our dream …but now,all d dream is just a dream… I think i’m not supportive enuff everytime u talk bout ur dream..m very very sorry 4 that…

Along,until akhir2 hayat kamu, u still try to fullfill others..u bought things for ibu ayah, me n others, utk sedara2, 4 ur friends… ur heart sgt tulus n mulia…ur life full with good deeds..kamu sedekah kat masjid kat kelantan haritu,mudah-mudahan ianya adalah antara jariah yg berpanjangan…insyaAllah..

Now,i’m in ur shoes..imagining d same situation as u b4,how does it feel to be sulung, 2 be harapan of ibu ayah n adik2,n to b urself….its hard n though…will u guide me again this time? sometimes i was wondering wether i’m doing d rite things or not….i hope i am…am i rite along?

"Alin,tgk muka org..kena gigit nyamuk la,byk bintik2 merah!".. one of d last words that came from u while u apllying ur compact powder kat bilik b4 kita bertolak time tu…but i just looking at u from far,try to smallen ma eyes coz i didnt wear specks dat time..sorry sis,i didnt c da spots..n wut i just told u is that" alamak,xnampak la.org xpakai spek"..  i think,i should come closer n put some vicks on ur face…so that i can remember it as d last touch b4 u go…uhuk..oh,tak2,i do help u sticking d ogawa thing b4 kita balik..heh,thats d last touch i think..:)

OMG,…while writing this, all d memories start playing back in my membrain.. i can’t write all, too much story too much memories… but this is among the most memorable one that i feel like i wanna share…

U really love to be d guidance 4 ur sis, n now Allah SWT giving u the biggest chance ever, guiding and be with ur other siss together with u in the other world…which i can’t imagine how u guys doin now…but i hope u guys r doin well..happily in d garden of heaven…amin

I’m going back to perak tomorrow. really hope to visit u,kakmin,hanni,n fineh tomorrow..mndak n rina would like to send some flowers 4 u s ur bday present…ibu ayah xencourage sgt coz mcm omputih they said…4me,maybe we can take is as ganti daun pandan n bunga rampai….my present 4 ur bday,..just Yassin n al-fatihah n doa’s will do…is it ok 4 u?

betulke aku balik perak? he can’t make it (4 reason yg xdpt dielakkan),maybe 5 can’t make it too…?haven’t check with him yet. i’m blank. i’m totally blank, n d xcited is gone…

actually i can go back alone, i hv no problem wif that,its just that i dun want to make ibu worry too much…its good f u guys can join me go home tomorrow,like b4.uhh,rindunya..its a final distance … but i really hope 2 visit u guys tomorrow,can i make it? betul ke aku balik nih? isk

Ok,happy Bday Along. U r d most wonderful sister that I ever have.. May Allah SWT bless ur soul, n the rest too…Amen…

Cause we never said goodbye…
And if I promise not to feel this pain,
Will I see you again?
Cause time will pass me by,
Maybe I’ll never learn to smile,
But I know I’ll make it through,
If you wait for me…
And all the tears I cry,
No matter how I try,
They’ll never bring you home to me
Won’t you wait for me in heaven?

*lyrics taken from kavana-Will u wait 4 me *

duh,Whut can i say bout this muvie…

"A Lot Like Love" is a lil bit like going into a relationship where u r a lil unsure at first, and later u just want to get out of it because u think it really doesn’t give u the emotional satisfaction that u need. anyway, da movie does have some funny n sweet mushy mushy moments..and that what makes me stay to watch it until d end….;)

da conclusion is that, Ashton Kutcher is sooooo cute! haha… and amanda peet is pretty too..

tomorrow is friday, and 24/06/05 is Koyong and late Along Birthday….

Harini buat apa? ntah la, nuthin much. kepala mcm atas angin aja. pol show me some interesting pics n vid.. comel gamba joe bek ngn afeenaa…oh,dpt frwd2 gambo baby panda pon comel juga..masa kecik2 mcm anak kucing..dah besa sikit baru ada kaler hitam putih…tomeynyoonyo ongott![ kejadian beruang panda ]

harini saja2 bukak testimonial orang.. terjumpa mende ni,so i feel like wanna paste it here too… *credit to ’sempoi’* xsure mana dia dapat or dia compose sendiri ke, tp isinya aku suke…ayat nya simple,but d msg is there..

Tolong ingatkan aku
Andai aku terlupakan Tuhan
Dalam kelapangan dan kesibukan
Dalam kesenangan dan kesusahan

Tolong ingatkan aku
Jangan jadi anak derhaka
Mak ayah jangan dilupa
Usah diluka hati dan perasaan mereka

Tolong ingatkan aku
Supaya ingat pesanan guru
Bukan sekadar ingatan
Tapi tarbiyyah berpanjangan

Tolong ingatkan aku
Dengarlah dan bacalah AlQuran
Tika radio penuh hiburan
Tika televisyen penuh Hindustan

Tolong ingatkan aku
Dimana Islamnya zahirku
Jika aurat didedahkan
Disingkat, diketat, dijarangkan

Tolong ingatkan aku
Jadilah sahabat yang baik
Sentiasa memberi peringatan
Sentiasa menerima teguran

Tolong ingatkan aku
Kalau bercinta biar keranaNya
Dalam memilih utamakan iman
Kelak ikatan dihindari syaitan

Tolong ingatkan aku
Hidup ini satu kembara
Kutiplah mutiara dalam perjalanan
Moga di sana menjadi bekalan

Tolong ingatkan aku
Diri ini milik Yang Kuasa

so, ma dear frensz n family, please help to remind me andai aku terlalai dan leka..ok….

*wulan…i miss them too..missed them very very very very very much. May God bless their souls.. amen…

Harini nak ctrl+v psl ni.. Perkara2 ni, ada separuh yg mmg dah tau n ada yg dah buat,but ada juga yg xtau..mcm tanam pokok n kerusi roda..apa2 yang kita buat pun,haruslah ikhlas..

Sedekah Jariah - Kebajikan yang tak berakhir!

1. Berikan al-Quran pada seseorang, dan setiap dibaca, Anda mendapatkan hasanah

2. Sumbangkan kerusi roda ke hospital dan setiap orang sakitmenggunakannya, Anda dapat hasanah

3. Berkongsi bahan bacaan yang membangun dengan seseorang

4. Bantu mendidik seorang anak

5. Ajarkan seseorang sebuah do’a. Pada setiap bacaan do’a itu, anda dapat hasanah

6. Berkongsi CD Quran atau Do’a

7. Terlibat dalam pembangunan sebuah masjid.

8. Tempatkan pendingin air di tempat umum.

9. Tanam sebuah pohon. Setiap seseorang atau binatang berlindung dibawahnya, Anda dapat hasanah.

10. Hantarkan email ini dengan orang lain. Jika seseorang menjalankan salah satu dari hal diatas, Anda dapat hasanah sampai hari Qiamat. Insya Allah.

so,mana yg kita mampu buat, eloklah kita buat..actually bukan 10 perkara kat atas ni je, byk lagi amal jariah yg boleh membawakan pahala yg berpanjangan… hari sabtu ni ada ujian KPLI…if dapat,insyaAllah bole jadi cikgu. cikgu2 zaman sekarang tough n byk cabaran..byk keje, nak menghadap murid2 yg makin pelik disamping menurunkan ilmu pengetahuan…tapi kalau buat ngn ikhlas n cekal serta usaha lebih sikit,insyaAllah boleh terus maju dlm bidang kerjaya ini…lagipun,jd cikgu/pendidik ni mulia..ni pun salah satu pekerjaan yg boleh dpt pahala yg berpanjangan..Ibu,saya coba ya..

"humm hummmm…I lay my love on you.. its all i wanna do"…isk,lagu westlife nih asik main dlm pale otak aku je..terbayang2 step tarian derang..egege..anyway,selain mine,this is one of my late sis fav song too…fuh,cari full lyrics dia la after this. eheh..

*ma dear sis Rina..please be strong…i really hope u’ll be strong…setiap penyakit ada ubatnya..insyaAllah…

dem sleepy !!! whut really happen to me? hmm,not sure. too full? can’t be…i’m still feel hungry after finished a bowl of chicken porridge this afternoon…or maybe just not enuff sleep last nite…padan muke,da tau esok nak keje,tp spent time checking all da nu pirate dvds yg beli kelmarin kt time square.luckily 9/10 gamba clear..yey… anyway, really hope that i can leave early today…..uhukk

Fathers day sms to ayah 19/06/05

U r our Ayoh, U r our Savior, U r our Hero, U r our Love, U r Our Life..
Selamat Hari Ayah!…heh

yesterday (19hb juga) is our dear housemate; Meshy Birthday..really hope n wish she’ll be fine.. strong to face her cabaran n dugaan hidup.. and keep on smiling, enjoy living in this beautiful world which surrounding with ppl that luv u….okies mokies?..well, sometimes its hard to understand man, so do man hard to understand woman, coz we r totaly 2 different creature…ye ke diorang xfaham? uhh, confius..

phrase "da most lonely place in da world is da human heart when love is absent"

sometime i do feel lonely but is it becoz of d absent of luv? ngo em chi…

Allah is ma fountain of life and my savior.Without Allah,I am no one. Allah is my strength. Allah keep me going day and night. May You lead n show me da way to find ma true happiness…amen..ecee.

its 6pm aldy. another collegues birthday today. td dah makan chizcake masam smlm ngn ropol.pastu dpt lg kek bday vege plak. bulan ni rasa mcm byk kali gile makan kek.takpelah, rejeki enggak harus ditolak pak…and its my fav gak.so,sumbatlah selagi boleh sumbat.haha. dah, pulang marilah pulang

*fotopages langsung tak boleh bukak today? why aa?

Thank God it’s FRIDAY! heh..seperti biasa, bila hari jumaat tu mula la malas2 sket nak wat keje..ate,mood nak berwiken lah katakan..this morning is cool, i saw Atin in MHI! ada slot psl pemilihan participant Olay,total aspirasiku..we heard at first,she was selected among da 21st shortlisted candidates,but tup tap,dia tarik diri..aiyak,it was her dream,tp due to some factors yg membuatkan dia tarik diri,..takpe lah.. u try again next time ok bebeh!

harini orang pegi semayang Jumaat..tanggapan jalan akan clear sket coz org seme dlm masjid ternyata tak boleh dipercayai..hehe…masuk Giant,on d road, ramai je lelaki2 muslim yg x semayang jumaat..aik,takkan musafir kut bang..ke bg alasan sbb jem? hmm,tp mmg kalau kat kl ni,mmg byk sgt la org2 yg mcmtu..derangni,bukannya susah pun,semaayang dah la 2 rakaat je, n then leh menenangkan hati mendengar khutbah dr mengadap keje2 yg slalu kita buat rutin, pahala pun besar…ghogi ghogi…
anyway, today seems good .me n ropol went to Giant Tmn Connougt with Glo mencari kettle..kasihan rumah kitorgnye cerek letrik dah bermasalah.nak masak air pakai periuk,lambat sket geraknya.so, i went there to buy a new one n hopefully akan digunakan lah ia seadanya..masih bersyukur kerana bekalan air bersih diMalaysia ni masih senang nak dpt compared to negara2 lain mcm India ke, africa ke..papua nu guniea ke…

Harini makan nugget mcD..xhabis pun (pol tlg habiskan). kenyang tahap cipan. baca The star online harini,talkin bout issue free needle n condoms.."AIDS at a critical level…
A needle exchange and free condoms pilot programme for drug addicts to curb the spread of HIV/AIDS will be implemented because the situation has reached an emergency level, the Prime Minister said.".. alahai Pak lah.. i don’t think this is d best solution.its not preventing,It sound like u r encouraging this ppl to continue doing d bad thinggy. cadangan mufti Perak bout quarantine those HIVers xnak pulak didengarnya…which is 4 me,lebih baik.walaupun ada pro’s n con’s nya…if not,they won’t think drug n free sex is bad n dangerous …then keep continue spreading emm… dem.

Harini hari ke 127 since they’ve been burried. bagus gak kalau betul harini turun batu. At least, sejuk sikit hati memandang if g ziarah nnt…pakcik,pasang harini ya…haritu balik xsempat nak ziarah..sorry sisss…uhuk. minggu depan insyaaAllah ok..

sabtu ni byk beno plan. nak pegi borders,nak pegi facial,nak pegi tgk pameran, nak jumpa kakhani,nak selebrate bday meshy juga…nak turun klang ke xyah ye? hmm….nnt pk lah.n lega,fon dah diunbarrrr….

oh,baru update fotopages.. http://intotsz.fotopages.com

Am i sick?i felt dizzy since this morning,until now still fenin2.headache sungguh.. kebarangkalian terlebih tido boleh dikatakan juga.mlm smlm lps smyaang maghrib tertido.pastu terjaga,semayang isya’ pastu tido balik..sampai bgn subuh..lps semayang..konon2 nak baring sambil tunggu ijah kuar toilet,ntah camne,boleh terlelap lg skali..pergh..byk gile tertido..n akibatnya,pening tahap cipan je bila g keje.padahal selalunya akula org paling lmbt tido kt rumah tu..buat apa,aku pun confius.tp selagi blom kul 12 tu,mmg slalunya xtido lg la..rasa nak amik panadol, teringat ada sorg dokto ni pesan ubat yg paling mujarab minum air masak byk2.hehe..dah..tp masalahnya asik nak terkucil je la plak.malasnya nak g toilet.hehe..or else, maybe boleh amik 100plus ganti panadol..balik nnt lah beli.skrg nak cari kedai kat area ofis ni dah tutup…

first time merasa fon kene barred.selalunye kitorg antara pembayar bil paling xmenimbulkan masaalah.saiko btol celcom nih. dah la derang yg kasi lambat bil..bila tanya "kenapa bil saya bulan lepas tak sampai2 lg"..selambe je jawab"ohh,bil bulan lepas mmg lambat sikit"..lambat sikit ke jadahnya, dah berapa haribulan dah nih,xsampai2 pun bilnya..isk isk..drg yg kasi bil lambat,pastu nak main bar bar plak bila kita lmbt baya sikit..cane leh xceed credit limit pun lg satu musykil.xpenah dibuatnya pakai talipon melampau2, nak kata begayut ngn sesape pun,mane ade sesape dah…hmmph..mungkin sbb gprs,mugkin juga sbb am dwld game yg tah hape2 haritu..tp,isk,takkan la…kene check bil balik nih.

bila korang nak unbar kan no tu en.celcom? saya dah bayar, saya dah fax,kata 2 jamm, ni dah lebih sehari..tahi sungguh celcom

alamak,rasa mcm nak wat poem utk ayoh… mlm ni lah. tgh fenin lg…xde mood nak wat keje..isk..

tetiba teringat lagu boyband kembo 4 org ni ,the moffats…

If life is short
Why won’t you let me love you
Before we run out of time
If love is so strong
Why won’t you take the chance
Before our time has come
If life is so short
If life is so short…

oh yeah, if my life is so short, do i have the chance?

dah dah. fenin